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Being me
"Being  Me" by Sarah Aboueljoud
I'm tired of being alone
All I ever do is sit at home
This home may be full
But it feels so empty
Everyone here is just so busy and bland
I wish I could be in a band
But I would need members to give me a hand
And members are hard to come by
Nowadays all everyone wants is a quick high
A high in life
But all I want is my knife
To cure this pain
Everyone likes to blame
Me? I like to think
Think about all the things
The things that brought me here
Afterall there must be a reason, for this social agony
I don't want to be stuck in an academy
Being compared to others like numbers and letters
I just to be me
But no one can seem to see
How great I really can be
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Literature
Slam Poem that was never performed A Heart To Hold
WordSmith's Note: THE FLANNEL HEART OF RICE MENTIONED IN THE SLAM POEM WAS LITERALLY A FLANNEL HEART OF RICE THAT WOULD WEIGHT THE SAME WEIGHT AS THE CHILD. ITS PURPOSE WAS TO VAGUELY SUBSTITUTE THE CHILD TO HELP COPE WITH PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL PAIN THEY ARE SUFFERING WITH. AT THE TIME I WROTE THIS POEM IT WAS FOR A FAMILY FRIEND WHO HAD YET ANOTHER STILLBORN AND WE BOTH WORKED AT THE NONPROFIT ORGANIZATION 'A HEART TO HOLD' WHEN I WROTE THIS. UNFORTUNATELY, IT WAS SHUT DOWN LAST YEAR AND THIS DIDN'T GET POSTED UNTIL NOW.    
It's devastating how ones' life can be taken away from another. .  .before you can actually get to know that person, who they are. And it can happen, so. . . suddenly. . . I mean, you're expecting a baby. The kick chart is high. The anticipation is killing you; you can't wait for your baby to live. To be a part of your life. To BE your life.
                             
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Literature
Speaking isn't allowed / The Buzz / Isn't so bad
Buzzing. She heard it. It was booming, thunderous, even. That whole buzzing of the crowd. The exchange of all those fast paced conversations. The buzzing, all the murmuring around her grew louder and louder until she could stand it. She can't stand it because the louder it got the more she felt alone. So alone. All the chattering. She couldn't speak.Speak and be judged. Speaking isn't allowed. . .
                                         . . .
But she also loved listening to that chattering and buzzing. It taught her things she never knew before. All she had to do was sit and listen. Focus her energy on one particular person, one particular conversation and she could learn so much. You can learn what someone's grandma finds funny, what someone finds offensive, even a little teeny tiny bit of what makes someone who they are. So listening isn't so bad.
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Literature
Climbing
I can do this, I say looking upon the moon above me thousand of miles away. The air was crisp and I could definitely taste it. Taste the cold. Taste it as much as I could FEEL it. Feel it in my breath, feel it in each thin strand of my hair, I could feel it all around me.  I look at the ladder above me on going almost like this starry sky. I slowly dragged my arm and grabbed onto the wooden ladder, it was sturdy, but I was excited so I didn't have the best grip, regardless, I went onto the first few rungs rather quickly until realization sunk into me. I was actually doing this. I am actually, truly doing this. I am climbing towards my biggest dream. I am climbing. . .towards the moon.  
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Literature
Adrenaline Junkster Rant
I want to journey. I want want to know not where I am. I mean, I love school, but oddly enough, the whole school life is too stable for me. I want adventure, I want to be free. It may sound impractical but despite really ever doing much except daylong walks in the city I still like to consider myself a lively adventurer.  I mean I want to try everything. Experience nature. Experience at its finest and fullest. I feel like here at school plugging in numbers and plotting graphs, while may be great for others, is not great for me. I am wasting my time and I only live once and my life is being wasted. I mean I am reading, watching and learning about other people's adventures but what about my own? I want to smell the world. I want to smell the salty oceans, to the smell of the dirts of the East. To smells of cotton candy from carnivals across the country (if not the world.) Sitting in a room can only get someone like me so far. I am too stable.
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Literature
Doom, waves, and Annabelle (prolouge, abandoned.)
It began just like any other day for me. The only difference is it was chillier, darker, spookier, even. I don't know why but it seemed like doom was in every drop of this sea. But nonetheless it still had that hint of Cheer. That hint of excitement. That feeling of "Well. . .what if. . .?" and "Anything could happen." I mean. . . After all, today, well, tonight, (since it was about 1:00 A.M. now.) marks the day, well, night, err, morning, or whatever you want to call it, that I will have my first real taste of freedom.
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Theater Changes
                                   Theater Changes
Narrator (Character 3): "Our first part of scene one contains traces of the genre 'drama.' Let us begin."
It (Character 1): *Voice-over* "It was cold, the wind was swooshing violently in the late dark night, millions of stars twinkled throughout the massively large sky. I could hear sirens blaring in the distance. I can't believe what I've done. I want to cry, just let it all out, but, I couldn't. I was dumbfounded and time just seemed to stand still.
It(Character 2): "How could I do this? What the HELL is wrong with me?"
It (Character 2): *Voice-over* "I re-called all the events. . ."
Narrator: (Character 3) *Interrupts it* And we end the drama there!!!!"
The (Character 4): "But why?!" Why? Whhhhy?!?!"
Narrator (Character 3): Why else The? Because, AS USUAL, Sarah has writer's block. *rolls eyes*
The (Character 4): *rolls eyes as well* "Oh."
Narr
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Literature
I am dreamer
                                                              I am Dreamer
                                                                                               I am from cheap sandals, from Hippie Tea, and food scrapes
   
                                                                                                   I am from a s
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Literature
Pride and Prejudice Essay
Pride and prejudice: Marriage
   In the 1813 novel, Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen described a time when customs and culture,
almost, if not, literally controlled peoples’ lives. These customsincluded the way people dressed,
talked and acted. Perhaps, most importantly, the custom of marriage greatly influenced the lifeof each
and every character, married, or not.  
Marriage is a very complicated thing in Pride and Prejudice. There are so many rules. First, a woman
must be get married (to a man of course.). It effects the reputation upon a family and their friends if a
lady who has been out for a while is single. And reputation is very important in this time
period.Obviously men would like to marry a woman with a high social class and fine reputation.Men
would also like to marry women who are very accomplished. Accomplished being having ideally, a large
fortune in their family name, beauty, and brains. A woman’s role in this custom is presenting one’s
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Theater changes (Script for drama class)
Theater changes
Narrator (Character 3): “Our first part of scene one contains traces of the genre ‘drama’. Let us begin.”
Voice-Over Brain/Narrator 2 (Character 1): “It was cold, the wind was swooshing violently, in the late
dark night, millions of stars twinkled throughout the massively large sky. I could hear the sirens blaring
in the distance. I can’t believe what I’ve done. I wanted to cry, just let it all out, but I couldn’t. I was
dumbfounded and time just seemed to stand still.”
It (Character 2) : “How could I do this? What the hell is wrong with me?”
Narrator 2 (Character 1): I recalled all the events. . .
Narrator: (Character 3) : *Interrupts It* “And we end the drama there!!!”
The (Character 4) : “ But why?!” “Why? Whhhhy?”
Narrator (Character 3) : “Why else The? Because, AS USUAL Sarah has writer’s block.” *rolls eyes*
The (Character 4) : “Oh.”
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Literature
High School Drama
I hate being a social loser, I hate it. I wish I wasn't going to be a super senior this year in high school and just go to college already. No more being the first to contact people, the first to text someone, the first to call a person, the first to start conversations with others, etc, for once people will care about me. I really wish I didn't have to be a super senior : /
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Literature
Rant
I can't do this anymore. I'm a good person. And I feel like you have, well, like you have drifted. Lately I've noticed some changes in you. You've started to curse. A lot. You care more about yourself than others, which normally is okay but yours is excessive. I'll have a problem at home with my family or something and you'll be worried about your boyfriends, even if I already helped you with it. You never return the favor and lately I've become sick of it. Sick of dealing with the same problem day to day. Sick of researching and it not have a good outcome. Just sick. Sick, sick, sick. But most of all I am astonished by what I witnessed today. You cyberbulling/trolling/dogging/whateveryouwanttofucking call it. That is wrong. Plain wrong. Wrong. Wrong period. Wrong. Wrong. Wrongwrongwrongwrongwrong. Wrong. I honestly, I. . .I don't know how you can live with yourself doing that to someone. I don't care what your reasoning for it was I don't care whether you were bored, hurt, jealous, or
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Wits
Smart in thought, confused in speech
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Complaints of the day:

- Society sucks

-Society cares too much about money

- People never leave their homes to do anything anymore

-People are flaky shits

-Nobody is ambitious anymore

-My pets care more about me than other people in my actual species

-People don't want to talk about things anymore

-People care more about cellphones and video games more than actual people

-Americans and America sucks

-People can't follow through

-People lie just so they don't have to deal

-The only reason people use social media is to prove how they are more anti-social than you

-I am smarter than everybody I know but everyone else is too dumb to see it

-Nobody believes in me

-I do and go everywhere alone

-I have no real friends

-There's no point of dressing up when you are only with yourself all the time

-There's no point to exercising and eating healthy if you hate life

-Nobody cares

"Being  Me" by Sarah Aboueljoud

I'm tired of being alone
All I ever do is sit at home
This home may be full
But it feels so empty

Everyone here is just so busy and bland
I wish I could be in a band
But I would need members to give me a hand

And members are hard to come by
Nowadays all everyone wants is a quick high

A high in life
But all I want is my knife

To cure this pain
Everyone likes to blame
Me? I like to think

Think about all the things
The things that brought me here

Afterall there must be a reason, for this social agony
I don't want to be stuck in an academy
Being compared to others like numbers and letters

I just to be me
But no one can seem to see
How great I really can be
Being me

Hey guys! Sorry, I took a hella long break, but now I am back. 

This was kinda a spur of the moment poem. Not really edited and doesn't really make sense to me, but what the hell.

"Being  Me" by Sarah Aboueljoud

I'm tired of being alone
All I ever do is sit at home
This home may be full
But it feels so empty

Everyone here is just so busy and bland
I wish I could be in a band
But I would need members to give me a hand

And members are hard to come by
Nowadays all everyone wants is a quick high

A high in life
But all I want is my knife

To cure this pain
Everyone likes to blame
Me? I like to think

Think about all the things
The things that brought me here

Afterall there must be a reason, for this social agony
I don't want to be stuck in an academy
Being compared to others like numbers and letters

I just to be me
But no one can seem to see
How great I really can be

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Is anyone out there?

Hi everyone, I just took an extremely long break, so long that the last time I was on here I was still in high school. I'm sorry, and I will try to stay more active now. But really, are you guys still there?
Hi everyone, I just took an extremely long break, so long that the last time I was on here I was still in high school. I'm sorry, and I will try to stay more active now. But really, are you guys still there?
Hi everyone, I just took an extremely long break, so long that the last time I was on here I was still in high school. I'm sorry, and I will try to stay more active now. But really, are you guys still there?

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Sarah Ann Aboueljoud
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
I am a author, poet, musician, artist, chef, actress, and creative thinker. I love the arts, oh and yuri.

Current Residence: Sacramento
Favourite genre of music: rock, pop, blues, reggae
Favourite style of art: I'm not sure
Operating System: ??
MP3 player of choice: PC or radio
Shell of choice: Sakura shell
Wallpaper of choice: Skulls
Skin of choice: Black
Favourite cartoon character: Too many too choose from!!!!
Personal Quote: Quotes are cnfuse one says to do this while the other says to do the other, listen to your own beating of your drum. ~Sarah Ann Aboueljoud
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IrynaFedorovska Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for the watch :D
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deskridge Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2015   Digital Artist
Dragon Roadblock by deskridge    
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Jchrispole Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2015
Hey, what's up? I'm going to feature you for the next Literally Unknown Member feature and I wanted to ask you this so I could post your thoughts.

In a short paragraph, what would you like people to know about you?

Please answer this as soon as you can. Because if not, I might post the feature without your input. Hope to get a reply from you soon!
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fotografka Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2015  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you so much for :+devwatch::huggle:

I'm very sorry for the late thank you, but when I went to college (law) I have completely no time for anything. I hope you understand :)
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duggiehoo Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2015
MenInASuitcase KimRaiFan's Bday Cake Blower fella (Party)
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TsundereYandereKawai Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
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sHavYpus Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2015   General Artist
Just checking in for a sneak peek here whilst I am on vacation, 
saw your birthday and just wanted to wish you a lovely, amazing and creative birthday! 

Best regards, 

:happy birthday: Lily Wishing a Happy Birthday 
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TsundereYandereKawai Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you!!! :)
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sHavYpus Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2015   General Artist
I hope your birthday was amazing! :hug: :D
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TsundereYandereKawai Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh it definitely was! I went to my first dinner theater! :D
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